"The world does not reward honesty and independence, it rewards obedience and service. It’s a world of concentrated power, and those who have power are not going to reward people who question that power."-Chomsky

"The trouble with self-delusion, either in a person or a society, is that reality doesn't care what anybody believes, or what story they put out. Reality doesn't "spin." Reality does not have a self-image problem. Reality does not yield its workings to self-esteem management." -J.H. Kunstler

"You don't need a weatherman to know which way the wind blows."-Dylan

Sunday, August 10, 2008

8/10/08 Denver V: Winding Down

Today was a day of preparing to move on. Not alot to mention other than a quick trip to REI and a decision to leave...for somewhere...Monday evening, rather than Tuesday. As things stand right now, I still have NO idea where that may be! There are three options as I see it: Santa Fe, toward the eastern seaboard, or perhaps Florida. The thought of another 8-hour Greyhound rides takes me to the brink of nausea, but I'm not so sure I want to head all the way out east at this point. And, Florida? Ugh...

The Mexico/South America trip has been consuming me a bit more over the last week or so, and I'm seriously considering sucking it up for the next few months to gather everything that's needed for it. I've decided to lighten the gear for this trip and eliminate the full tent in favor of a bivy, which won't be cheap. Neither will the added water purification equipment that will obviously be needed down there, especially in Mexico. It's not lost on me that my Spanish...wait...
WHAT Spanish?! ? Yeah. Need to work on that.

This is just a consideration however, and I detest the idea of returning to Santa Fe so soon. There's a very high likelihood that I'll just walk or ride out of Denver...wherever. Maybe I'll pay a visit to the rail yard. Maybe I'll just hitch toward Ft. Morgan or Cheyenne again. Maybe Kansas. I can say this for certain: it will not be toward Utah! I'm going to try to contact Ken and Cesar tomorrow to see where they are; if they happen to be this side of the Mississippi, it could get quite interesting.

Where will I go? I guess I really don't care. That's the bitch about freedom: deciding. I've said that too many times. I could flip a coin, or maybe I'll dig the dice out of my backpack again. I'm open for suggestions. Leave a comment, or shoot me an email if you have one; I'd love to hear some ideas.

I feel compelled to put a bow on this trip to Denver, but I don't know that I can. It's been humbling, frustrating, eye opening, educational, disturbing, encouraging, invigorating, and tedious (and too often intoxicating) all at once. I'm sure that some of the insights I've gained here will be useful in time; I hope so. I never intended to stay in Denver two full weeks, and that's frustrating. However, the point was to alleviate the money issues, and I've exceeded my expectations in that regard. I said I stayed too long with Florian, then Eric & Marine, and then Dave too. Is anyone surprised?

I want to thank Friar Chris for his extended hospitality. We had some great times here. The conversations and insights we exchanged were remarkable, deep, intense, and, yes, exhaustive! It's these sorts of exchanges that really work a mind. The kind that are two sided and original, rather than dictated from quotation and interpreted.

Eric deserves a thank you also. Working with him isn't 'work'; the days filled with the same kinds of observation, debate, and insight from a unique perspective are priceless. The fact I get paid mildly astounds me when I think about it, although I shouldn't say that until after he pays me tomorrow! Eric's been a wonderful, loyal friend to me over the past few years. I'm sure he's calling me a 'homo' for saying so, but it's true. I appreciate it, and it needs to be said more often.


Also, for those of you who are getting the email updates and maybe haven't been to the homepage lately, I've added a few more things including links to Kinga and Chris's travel pages, as well as a few other little nicknacks, so stop by and poke around once in a while. And sign the damn guestbook!

I'm not sure when I'll be able to update again; maybe Monday if work ends early enough. I'll let you know what I decide then, if possible. If not...stay tuned!